July 22, 2010

A year ago today and the meaning of dreams . . .

A year ago today, I was sitting in a hospital waiting room blogging about Health Reform without having the slightest idea that it was the beginning of the end, literally. 

Last night, although falling asleep rather early, I didn't sleep well, being awoken first by my phone then my dreams.  No stranger to dreams and especially after watching Inception this pas week, I'm a bit shaken up by it all.  The Dream Dictionary definitions seem accurate enough, but the reality isn't easier to deal with.

To see your mother in your dream, represents the nurturing aspect of your own character. Mothers offer shelter, comfort, life, guidance and protection.

To dream that you are having a conversation with your mother, denotes a matter that has preoccupied your mind and you are not sure how to deal with it in your waking life. It indicates unresolved problems that need to be worked out with your mother.

To hear your mother call you in our dream, suggests that you have been negligent in your duties and responsibilities. You are pursuing down the wrong path.

To see and talk with your dead parents in your dreams, represent your fears of losing them or your way of coping with the loss. You are using your dream as a last opportunity to say your final good-byes to them. In trying to keep up with the pace of your daily waking life, your dreams may serve as your only outlet in coping and coming to terms with the loss of a loved one.

July 15, 2010

Dot Dot Dot

I've been crying a lot lately.  Random things, randomly bring me to tears.  Today, it was this poem by Анна Ахматова:


Я пью за разоренный дом,
За злую жизнь мою,
За одиночество вдвоем,
И за тебя я пью,—
За ложь меня предавших губ,
За мертвый холод глаз,
За то, что мир жесток и груб,
За то, что Бог не спас.

There's many ideas for blog posts brewing and I'm not sure where to begin.  The last few months have been nothing short of torturous, confusing and lacking proper adjectives at the moment.  But I'm tired of talking of the negativity - if I am to practice what I've been preaching and desperately trying to believe - positive attracts positive.  Light attracts lights.  Love attracts love.

July 8, 2010

No More Tears

This stupid day just kept getting better and better.  I have no more strength and no more tears and with everything going on, I'm ashamed to say I forgot the most important thing.  I didn't even light a candle, but I remember. I always remember.  I even mentioned it in Danik's birthday toast - the three most important things that Grandma taught me -  
Не Откладывать! 
Уметь Праздновать! 
Жизнь Прекрасна! 
I really hope that she knows how much I wish that last statement to be true when everything seems to be in shambles.
Forever in our hearts 02/18/24-07/18/08

July 6, 2010

I'm with STUPID

o I am totally in love with new (not so new) DIESEL ad campaign. I think it's genius, here's a few I've "collected." What are your thoughts? What's your favorite one?